| I tried being optimistic for... what a couple days.
or maybe its been 24 hours.
people are losing jobs. Friendships are at stake. Sanity is being questioned.
what is right, RIGHT now.
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| Choices can be lethal; definitely for me. Becasue i have made a choice to go to one school, but I am so regretting it. I have an apartment, people depend on me to pay for my way. I'm locked, stuck into it. This makes me anxious. I don't want to go. I wanna do something else. All i want know is, why am I figuring all of this out.... now?? Good lord. I'm going to try and stick this one out. but if this semester goes really shitty, im walking out. sorry friends, i'm gonna do what i really want.
maybe i should just move. Start something new, but i guess running away from my mundane problems won't solve a thing. but, jesus. i've never been around such negativity and super shallow people.
i just call it how i see it.
ramble. ramble.
all i want to do is frolic in a sunflower field.
and watch the sky.
the end.
shalom.
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| honestly, this is mostly for my self.
why i continue to indulge the world into my noggin, is beyond me.
this internet blogging is addicting.
i got a twitter.
pssshyea. twitter. i vowed i would never.
but i did.
ohhh shit, i gone did and DONE IT.
ANNNNNNDDD.............i like him.
the end. god bless.
shalom and stuff.
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| O porcupine, low in the tree; your eyes to mine:
'You'd be well inclined not to mess with me.'
mewithoutyou wednesday, thats all thats important right now.
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| So here starts the new chapter in my life.
It's kind of liberating, starting a new.
And i think its just the thing to get me out of my funks lately.
I'm so ready to move out, and start school somewhere else.
It's been overdue to start doing things my way, sometimes i go with the flow a little bit too much.
But really where has it gotten me, not far.
And i think i'm a little afraid of commitment, which is CRAZY but when a possible relationship is being put in front of my face...
its like when i'm not doing the chasing, when someone is actually going for me, its weird.
i don't know what to do. how to act.
i don't want to make a mistake, date the wrong person.
but i guess i'll never completely know.
again, very scary.
life's uncertainties are tiring.
frustrating.
confusing.
yea,
i wish i knew the answers.
shalom.
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